Secondary's life

shhhh, it's my turn now.. let me to talk about my secondary's life. :D

I'm graduated! Seriously, i can't study my mind because I don't know what feeling I need to show. I'm happy that I'm graduated and can do anything I want but I'm sad because I can't keep staying together with my friends.Times flies fast! Who know when we will meet up again? Maybe won't meet again, maybe forget each other, maybe migrate, maybe meet again, maybe..... I hope we can make laugh together and talk about gossip. yea, time can't wait us. Luckily, I fill my life with different colors. Because I have family, friends and teachers. During secondary, many things happened on me. Critique, scolding, teasing, having fun with friends, in bad mood with results, arguing with friends, admiring on someone.... 

When I was Form One, I think I was too childish at that time. I didn't have a good relationship between with classmates. I kept doing stupid things at that time. Uhhhmm, like talking someone bad things in loud, snatching someone's chairs, keeping someone's things... Maybe I didn't know what was the meaning of friendship at that time. I thought a good friend should treat his/her friend nicely. Now I just realize a good friend does not only treat us nice and good friend will tell us what is our faults. At that time, I didn't accept the fault that I made because I thought I was the right one. Luckily, friendship between some friends was rebuilt again except her. Maybe I have done a big mistake on her until now she haven't forgive me. She hates me and I know it. We were good friends. One day, she told me that she would invite me to her new house to play. These words let me know she was kind on me but after that you kept calling me to stand far away her dislike person. I did what she said and nearly broke the relationship with the one she hate. I kept finding a chance to talk with her but she didn't want to meet me because she said that she hates me deeply. I m so sad that I can't rebuilt the relationship between she and I even though I m graduated.
 Form 3 was the most terrible year for me ever and ever. I admired 'someone'. Let's name the 'someone' as ABC. He told me that he loved me through MSN. Everyday, he came to find me to chat. One day, she sent a message to tell me that I was not suit with him. "huh? how you know it?why you say so?" I replied. "you don't feel xxx(her best friend) more suit with him than you?" she replied. OMG, that time I didn't know what I should I do. I felt sad that she found me because these things. A few days later, many people knew that he and I were having "best best friend" relationship.At canteen, I heard someone seeing me and teasing me,"huh? she is the one he love? oh no, she has a big mouth!!" A girl(GG) came to hit me and took her friends to my class to see me. After that, GG's classmates told me that she kept teasing me in her class. She called me as Mo Peng ( in hokkien, means that having a lot of pimpers). From that day, I found my pillow was wet when I woke up and I became more quiet. I started to blame my appearance and scold my mum that why I have so lot of pimpers. After that, ABC told me that he didn't have feeling on me. ARGH!! I felt that I had been played within a month! I heard my friend said that ABC could like many persons at once. Now, I m happy that I do not start any relationship with him. Maybe I was lucky! At that time, I kept look down myself and not more confidence on myself. Luckily, I have my family. They kept encouraging me and I started to walk out from the sadness. Furthermore, I had encouragement from a best friend when I was down. Then, I had special relationship with him but this special relationship had ended in this early year. My friends keep saying that I'm noob in love because I haven't find a boyfriend and haven't start a relationship with love one.

Haha! Times flies sooooo fast! I m so happy that I have learnt so many things from my secondary's life. I need to  thank everyone who praise me or tease me. Because of you all, I have more mature thinking and I know that Family is the best for me!

I m simple

Why I put this photo? It's because it is looked simple. -.- Forgive me, I m too bored. It is a simple doll, but do you know the person who created really worked hard to make it. Ewww. I m simple but I m not useless. That's the meaning that I want to show. -.- I like simple. I can do what I want. I don't need any people to mention me. I can do myself as the song--- Just The Way You Are!! XD BUT simple doesn't mean I m not good enough! Simple also can make somethings well. 

P/S: I m having sob emotional so write some weird things. LOL!

Enjoyable day !

Today is an enjoyable day although i cannot have an outdoor activity! No people judge me in home. x)) But, my heart still in my mouth when nobody is around me. I seem so timid. >.< I really scare !! When I heard some noise, my heart already started  "beebopbeebop..." faster than usual. But never mind, I can do what I want! Buahahaha.

This morning, I woke up and did some housework. Hahahaha, I am known as good daughter actually. I can't stop bluffing. x) because I was so enjoy today!! But, I had two tuition today. Ehm, I <3 piano ! Wohooooo! But I hate practice :P Because I m lazy!! After that is my add math tuition!! Wohooo!
Thanks Auntie took me to tuition.

Don't know why. Recently I so like to eat Hainan Chicken Rice. I think it is because i m a hainanese! ><

  

 slurp :P deliciouse leehhhhh.

Sorry for my bad camera. I hope I can get a DSLR soon :) 

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Actually I look so girly at the left hand side photo. I so miss it. But, the right hand side, I seem so cool. xD 

heeee. So which one hairstyle is suitable for me now?? Leave some suggestion to my chatbox. Tq :)

SUNDAY!!!

Smile for Sunday !

Sunday? SIGH! Sunday so what? Stay at home then watch some boring movie or playing Tetris Battle. I so hope I can go out with friends and buy some clothes for Chinese New Year. But, NO transport! Ewwwww. Never mind, my dearest elder sister accompanied me today. Heeeheee. :) She is 20 years old now and also a student of university at somewhere else which is far apart from my hometown.

I don't like her actually. I feel she is so annoying and likes to bully me. But, don't know why, I feel bored and sob without her. My family members do not know why I always don't want to sent her to bus station because I sure I will cry. Just now, I was forced to go to bus station because we had a dinner before she was leaving. While she was leaving, I don't know why my tears dropped out frequently at that time. I hate people leave me. I hate! I hope my friends and family don't leave me. I know I m greedy, but I really hope that.

If you are dare to leave me, I will give this face to see and hate you!!!

Buahahahah x))

P/S: Count down for Christmas Day!! It is 20 days to wait. I really hope this year can be some different than last few years. :) I don't want a BORING Christmas again !!!

A baby.

Is she cute? She is not my cousin or sibling. She is found from Google. And she is not my idol.

I hope I can be a baby again :( Don't have any sad feelings and can laugh always except baby is sad for hunger or pass urine/shit on the pampers.

It's really confused. Why when a people is grower, the mind which are belonged by them will become complicated? I hope I m a baby again. When cry, I can be hugged by mum. When hungry, food will be sent to my mouth. If I want to get something, I just point at something and cry. Yeapi, I can get it.

I should wake up but now the time makes me want to get on bed. Goodnight my blog, I <3 you :)

Holiday is going to end

This holiday had been wasted by mine.

Sleep, surfing internet.. LOL

Sigh!!! SO WASTE!

That's meant I did not plan the holiday correctly.

This Wednesday, I went for English tuition.

Teacher said my vocabulary very poor.

SIGH!

When he straight tell me that, my heart is crying.

Who call me no appreciate the tuition.

Always no revise. :(

Arghhh!!!

SORRY to myself.. :(

Nowadays, my mum keep scolding me.

I don't know how to face her after the result is out.

When I'm younger, I m a good girl.

I obeyed the words from her mouth .

But now, I m looked like very rebel.

But, she also seemed so annoy too !!!

Arghhhh!!!

I m going to crazy!

Many problems appear on my mind!

I hope many story books let me to read to let the mind calm.

this book so nice, really...!!!

Make me cry. LMAO

I cannot cry in house... My siblings or my parent will scold me.

So... hide my face with my book..

LOL. Ugly betty :)

when I m sad, I will play my piano to release out my mood... ! yeahh!

But most of the time is at night. So, my family dislike me to do that. haizzz...

Sighness for my life!!!

My lame schedule for holiday

What's thing can be done for my holiday?

Shopping? Mum say lazy.

hang out? Almost all of my friends go for activies.

Going for a journey? NONONO!

Mum say I went to Genting Highlands and Kuala Lumpur last the end of the year.

Don't say Kuala Lumpur, just over a BRIDGE to George Town for shopping also CANT.

SO?!

Stay at home with my sighness.

At home can do what?

Playing my piano to stress out my mood? Yaya..

But, my siblings said that I m so noisy.

Okay, I find something that is not noisy.

Errrrmmmm, online!!!

seeee!!!

I play my laptop until the problems appear.

Aissshhh, I keep playing again because nothing to do.

"!@#$%^&*()" oh no! mum is scolding.

Okay OFF! Nobody can call me to OFF, except my mum is scolding me. xD

I m so naaauuughhhtttyyy!!!

"Hanahana, I see books la. Okay??" Mum becomes quiet.

Hey actually, I m a great reader, okay!

Well, my face isn't look like.. ( To those friends say me *)

Luckily, I borrowed a GREAT book from my friend.

Ta-daaa...

Ermmm, it is the 2nd episode of the House Of Night which is named as "Betrayed".

Love it very much!!

I'm going to buy the next episode "Chosen".

Wait me!

I m going to take 'YOU' back.

Bad appearance of me

I have the worst appearance among my friends.

When I open my facebook, I feel that I really ugly if compare with my friends.

Friends, it is not call as EMO.

Is REAL.

Otherwise, I just sad about my friends.

Why my friends and I look so far.

Because I always say out wrong words??

So I dislike to open my facebook, but finally I also open it.

When I keep seeing friends' profile,

my brain will start to work and think of many things.

So I change my nickname and change my profile picture whatever the picture is ugly.

But, I want a change for myself.

So now, call me as ARIANNA!

But, say actually, my name's sound has some as other religions' name?

IF sound bad, I will change again.

Hope you all can give some suggestions.

THANKIEW

A day secrets with dear friend.

Sigh! I had activity today.

I thought just paint the wall...

But, I actually was rearranging and handing the books from one side to other side..

Others of that, i cleaned the curtain.

Full of tired!

Then, I went out to eat with someone *secret*... haha *

excuse my ugly face *

Guess who is her??

Haha*

We talked many things about someone else.

Now, I felt so sorry my heart and mouth in due to keep saying people's bad things.

:(

I think I need a start for changing this attitude :(

Sorry, my mouth TT

It's late now. I'm going to sleep. Have a sweet dream :D

Abnormal movie that I had never seen before

BLACK SWAN

I don't know either want to praise her acting or blame myself...

I thought Black Swan is an interesting movie.

Ya, it's really quite interesting.

It is interesting for Masochistic...

No wonder the ages which below 18 years old are forbidden.

For me, her performance really amazing, but she also let my hairs stood on its end.

When watching it, I was holding my bed sheet and shutting half of my eyes.

she scratched her body herself until bleeding. oh my goodness!

At the end, she still killed herself.

oh my god!

Because she wanted to be famous...

So, she sacrifice herself for her ballet.

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I'm wearing my uniform :D

Single's Day.

Short post again..

I'm so lag for time :(

Who say Valentine Day must couple celebrate together.

Single one also celebrate.

But the day not named as Valentine's day is Single's Day!

Yeaaahhhh....

If have people ask you, who create one??

You must reply quickly :" LIM CHIN YING! "

Yeaaa, I'm single for 16 years!

wohoo!!

Congratulation!!

A short post ..

I'm so long no update my blog..

Because Form 4's life really so difficult and busy too...

sigh, what the suffer form 4's life..

Let's tell you a great dream i have for just now.. :D

I have a flight to America in dream. I'm going to there for having study.

I speak to foreigns and be friends with them...

Share our clothes with each other, shopping together and then have a crazy time on the beach.

WOW!

It's so great!

But it is just a dream..

This dream has occurred in my mind many times.

Haha* Funny right?

And my English is so poor and has long distance for reaching to talk with foreigners.

I don't want to stay at Butterworth, Penang!!

It is so bored!

If God gives me a chance, I will beg him for giving me to KL or overseas!

I have a neighbour, thus she also is my friend.

She already went to Australia.

I'm so admire her..

Why the lucky is no happened on mine??

I hope I can change my lazy, like that i can go overseas myself...

Bless me and wish me... :)

christmas day :)

LOL, Christmas Day ...

I so that I will have a great Christmas Day.

Actually, NOPE!

Happy? No!

Sad? Yes!

Mum took us to Pacific !!

So?

Mum called me to choose clothes yourself.. LOL

Well, there are so many clothes but no one I like.

Keep emo there and here.

So stupid to wait somebody's messages.

I want to buy dress, but quite expensive..

sooo, forget about it.

So, I buy a T-shirt and short pants..

After Pacific, we were having dinner at Sushi King ( Sunway ) !

Food quite nice..

So hope I can go there again. :D

I LOVE SUSHI!!!

Christmas EVE!!! SOooo bored !!!

Yaaa, very boreddd!! So, come here blog-ING. xD

I so hope Christmas Tree can light everyday!!!

I so hope I can celebrate with friends at Christmas Day..

But no people invite me at 25.12.2010..

Buahaha.. Sad!!!

Before say want gift exchange one, now no any people invite me.. :(

So saddd... ='(

Anyway, I want to make a wish here. :)

1. I want a BIG BEAR! : I know I'm not mature but this is my wishes when I'm young. :)
2. I want friends be with me at Christmas Day. :D
3. I want HE to give me a Christmas's gift. : Impossible!!
4. Anyway, I want a GIFT! : buahaha!!
5. I want GOWN !! X)
6. I want my LAZY go far far!! : Because I'm very lazy. X]
7. I want me healthy always... Heee. :D

I hope SANTA CLAUS can let the wishes become TRUE !!

SANTA CLAUS, please open your computer and see my blog larrr.

I know SANTA CLAUS no need use DEERS to fly here and there..

Because SANTA CLAUS very IN liao. X)

Just use POST LAJU (for Malaysia) sent here and there..

Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS !

Cry finish already.. Now, going to my new start..

Hey!! I get my result lerrr.

You guess good or not??

BAD!

I so hate the PMR's result.

I took the results and dashed out from school.

Yaaa, I not dare together with them to capture photo.

I have a BAD result !

7As, 1B!!

You all know what subject they give me B??

MALAY!

The subject most have confidence is MALAY!

But, at the end get B is my MALAY!

Others subjects that I not confidence one.

All give me As!

Otherwise, almost all my good friends get 8As!

I so not dare together with them anymore.

But I no chance together with them also.

They sure now at front class.

I NO!

No time to face to them also.

I think the time can decrease all the things to disappear.

When I dashed out to wait my mum's car...

I already can't endure my feeling..

My eyes automatically flow out the tears...

That time, I was so lonely... Look like a crazy girl crying...

My image broke!!

Luckily, I saw LI YUEN ...

If not, I will cry until flood. Buahaha.

When I cry, NONE of my good friends come to advice me except SIN HOOI!

I know it's over.

But I cannot stop think about it.

Friends, I'm so sad that I can't same class with you all.

And, I will have a CHANGE for myself.

I will try to be hardworking...

LOL

Cry finish already.. Now, going to my new start.. :D

Oh no! I can't sleep tonight!

tomorrow is result day!

28 change to 23 Dec.. :((

Now, i have stomachache and headache.

I so scare the results.

Mum say bad or good result.. All because I get hardworking or not.

Yaaa, I know.. But I so nervous now. :(

I so hope the time now can stop..

sigh!!

All webfriends please bless me.. :D